almost new year

It's been a great year.  In a short little review, I turned 15 and started driving this summer.  Also this summer I went to the United Kingdom and Paris, France and about two months later went to Orlando, Florida.  I started my Sophomore year of high school and tend to drink more coffee than I did last year.  I learned I not only have a passion for becoming an artist, but someday becoming a writer in England.  Wherever I may go in life, is in God's hands. 

On Christmas day, my Grandma asked me if my family members or I had chosen a new year's Bible verse, "So you can remember the verse as your verse for this year." she said.  We all shook our heads in unison.  But what a great idea, I thought to myself: a Bible verse that I choose for the new year.  A verse I can hold to in my heart through everything in 2013. (Out of habit, I almost typed 2012)

Last night, I spent time searching for the right verse for me this new year's.  Here is what I found through my old highlighted pages.  I found a lot of really good ones, too. (feel free to use them as your own verses for the new year!)

* psalms 62:2
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

* ephessians 5: 1-2
Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

* ephessians 6: 7-8
Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free.

The last one I will show you guys, is one I found about a month ago.  And it stuck with me.  I read it, and I was so shocked, I was looking for some sort of guidelines that said, "This verse was meant for Allie!"  Because I saw so much in these words.

* proverbs 4: 11-13
I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your step will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.

"...for it is your life."  I mean, WOW!  Guys, that's like my blog in a few sentences!  I swear to goodness, I never read this verse before I even started this blog.  It just boggles my mind that this verse reflects so much of me.  "I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths."  When I read this verse, I feel like God is near me.  Like He's close to my heart.  Which is what I, a Daughter of Christ, should feel. 

This will be my verse for 2013, I have decided.  Not even for 2013, but for my life.  I love it so much.  Happy New Year, everyone!  May you find a great verse that inspires you throughout 2013 and beyond.  See you on the other side ;)

*Allie* 

europe hidden mickey pictures summer 2012

 

*christmas vacation*

Hey all!

Oh, those asterisks next to the title?  Those are snow flakes.  Aren't I creative?  I'm trying to at least, for a special holiday coming up in... oh, four days.  Yeah, it's Christmas!  I am so excited, I kid you not!  Today was the last day of the school of 2012 until January 7th, 2013.  I am finished with all of my homework and I am so happy.  Gosh, I hope today really isn't the end of the world.  That would suck.  Four days before Christmas and the world decides to fall apart.

Well, any who.  I have been making a list of things I'm planning on doing during Christmas vacation so it will seem like it will last longer.  So far I have,

1) drink tea at least once every day
2) read several books
3) get together with friends
4) possibly write my story
5) draw and put things up on the web

It's not much and I'm sure I have more, but I just needed to get that out!  I'll try to swing by before Christmas break is over.  Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

 

*Allie*

so where were we?

Oh yeah, life decisions.  Pros and cons on future careers and totally different life styles.  One life totally artsy and living in California only a few states over from my home state.  Deadlines with everything Disney, Disney, Disney.  From interning to working at the parks to interning again.  Working with a kids spirit and imagination bubbling over with every idea. 

Another life completely quite.  Long walks in Hyde Park, writing on park benches or in tea shops, meeting foreign people on the bus.  And that's it.  Living by myself, thousands of miles away from friends and family. 

But that whisper.....

It's been months since I heard that whisper.  I mean what was I supposed to do when I heard God telling me, "This is a new direction you can take!"  I'm almost 16, not old enough to do anything but drive with a parent and maybe get 12 hours a week at the grocery store (I still haven't gotten there yet...).  I can't fly across the country to a different one to follow a whisper - at least not yet.

Urgh!  I always end those sentences with a "at least not yet".  It's frustrating and it gets me no where in these situations.

When I went to Disney World, in their Hollywood Studios park, there was like a whole spot dedicated to Animation.  And I could have spent hours there - even days!  There, you can learn how to draw by Disney interns and I had a blast.  After drawing my first character, my dad kept telling me I should go talk to the intern guy.  He finally convinced me and I came up to the guy.

"So what college did you go to?"  I asked him.  He named off some school but I forgot what he said.
"We've go a Disney fan in our family," my dad said patting my shoulder, "She wants to join your rank soon." 
I was beaming.  Me!  Actually talking to a Disney intern.  I had so many questions!  I just couldn't wait to ask h--
"Huh!  Good luck!" he said with a grumble.
"Oh," I said disappointed, "Thank you...?"

I knew that a lot of people don't really make it "up there" when it came to Disney.  And he might have been one of them.  I saw him two days later, wearing a janitor suit with a broom and a bucket.

How can I be sure that I won't be that guy?  He was probably 5 - 7 years older than me and every Disney employee makes minimum wage.  How am I sure I won't make it to an actual Disney Animator position?

But how am I sure I won't make it as a writer/author?  They don't make much either. 

I think what I'm worried about is time.  I want to be young for everything!  I want to work at Disney for a long time, like when I'm married and afterwards.  But I want to live in England as a writer before I get married.  And I think I know why. 

A couple of months ago, my mom joked that 1/3 of her grandchildren would be British.  She's convinced now that I will marry a British guy because I am in love with EVERYTHING British!  And it's true.  I've kind of liked that "joke" of mom's since she started it.  Maybe that's another reason why I want to go to England before I get married.  What if God wants me to meet my future husband in England?  I have thought about that SO much.  And it makes sense for some reason!  I don't know.

I think I need to pray about this for a while.  I can't do much at the moment right now, anyways.  I need to pray for where God wants me to go, because I can't see everything right now.  All I see is everything up close.  But He sees the whole picture right now!  I need to trust Him more.

Thank you guys for your prayers and comments.  You are very dear to me and that's why I tell you guys these things.  I hope the next few posts won't be as... depressing?  Confusing?  Or anything of the sort?  I'll talk with you guys later :)

*Allie*

things that make my mind spin......

Hey guys,  I'm back from Florida!  I had a great time ;)  It was a nice break from life and I think I needed that to give myself a breather. 

Remember when I told you guys in my last post how I need to talk to you guys about something?  Well, I will tell you now... I guess.  To be honest, my mind is just sitting in the land of fog.  But nevertheless, I will tell you guys what's been on my mind.

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I've been drawing a lot more - a lot more!  My style in art is changing every time my pencil hits paper and I'm loving it.  This is what I've wanted for so long.  I'm drawing and actually liking most of what comes out of the sketch.  It's wonderful.

My mom and I have been looking into the school DigiPen.  It's a great art school in our area and it's close to my house.  The best part, is that some of the teachers have worked for Disney Animation Studios before.  It's quite amazing!  DigiPen is a college, so I have a while before I can attend.  But I am just so excited and want to learn more about the school.

And what's even more cool, family members that live less than a half an hour away from DigiPen have said they are willing to let me stay at their house if I go to that school.  Wow, that would be amazing!

But I just have one problem.  I now have a new passion.  One that I didn't even know would come up into the mix of things.  I love it just as much as drawing, and possibly even more!

 

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I have always loved to write.  When I was in middle school, I started writing novels I wanted to publish one day.  Back then, I knew I wanted to be an author when I was older but I was on the fence about it.  One, I knew it wasn't the best of a living (I think the average writer makes 60k - 80k a year) and two, I knew writing takes time; I hate deadlines, and I wouldn't like a company yanking on my chains to finish something - especially if it was writing a book!

 

I've been taking a creative writing class at my school and it has challenged me to write in ways I never thought possible. I love it! And I've been writing something big. It's part novel, part script for a BBC Sherlock episode. I have never been so excited about something in my entire life. My whole story is coming together so nicely and I've really become obsessed with writing and thinking about it. And you know what? It's making me want to go back to England. I thought to myself a while back ago, "What if I became a writer and lived in England?" 

 

All of a sudden I got this overwhelmed feeling - I don't know if it was in heart, soul, or gut - but I knew that I wanted to do this. In a weird way, it was almost as if God was telling me to do this.  Or at least to plan for it, I'm still not out of high school. 

 

I was quickly pushing the thought of moving to England out of my head, "Nope!  You are going to be a Disney Animator that lives in California!  You cannot move and live in England!  That's crazy!  You could never do that!  NO!"  And then, as if someone whispered into my ear, I heard, "Why not, Allie?  Why couldn't you do that?  What's stopping you?"  I knew this was God telling me this, He was calling me to do something, "What if I want you there for a reason?"

 

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I am literally writing a pros and cons list about choosing between two of these major future decisions!  I'm not done talking about this yet, but I need a breather from this topic (and I know you guys do too!).  So this will be a "To Be Continued" post......

 

*Allie*

florida

Hi friends!

Sorry for the lack of updating and stuff.  I've just been pretty busy lately.  I would want to write a post, but as soon as I brought up a new tab to write one, I would always be stuck, "What should I even talk about?"  I mean, besides the homework load and making new friends, life has been pretty uneventful.  Seriously.  Well, besides the fact I'll be visiting Florida for two weeks :)

Yes, Disney World and Universal Studios will indeed be what we are visiting!  I am just now getting really excited for this... mainly because I leave tomorrow night.  And the funny part is, I haven't even started packing yet.  Yeah, I'm weird that way!  Prayers would be lovely, darlings.  You guys are so awesome for even reading this post :)  I wish I could give you all hugs!

Another funny thing, one of my first blog posts was about me visiting Florida for the first time.  That was two years ago!  Goodness, it just blows my mind.

I want to ask you guys some advice on something.  Something I've been thinking about for a while now.  But I might have to write a post about it when I get back.  Please stay tuned :) 

I love you all!  Have a great weekend,

*Allie*

a brand new school year

Hey all of you wonderful people!

It's that time of year again where all children in the district get together and do loads of homework!  Oh joy!!!! *sarcasm*  I'm just kidding, I really do like the beginning of the school year; you come in with a fresh start, new supplies,  and a better judgment coming in this year than the last.  I've gotten most of my room clean, I just have a few piles of crud here and there.  I know having a clean room will help myself not be too stressed out, so that's a good thing.

Another one of the great things about school starting up is -no not seeing your friends again- but watching the new episodes of your favorite tv series!  My family only has the basic channels, but our favorite shows are "The Middle" that stars Patricia Heaton and the other tv show that is my most favorite tv show in the entire world, BBC's Sherlock!!!  Ugg, best show ever!  The sad part in that is that Sherlock won't be filming the 3rd season until 2013.  *oh, poo!*

With new pencils and all, I'm starting school this Thursday :)  I hope everyone has a great first week at school!

Chat with you later,

 

*Allie*

youtube videos update

Here are some speedpaints, guys!  Enjoy :)

*Allie*

an update

Hey y'all!

My apologies for being absent ever since I got back to the Bloggie World.  I have gotten over jet lag and all that crud for good and I am so glade to be back!  I miss walking around in Europe though :'(  Everyone that I've seen or talked with since I came back have asked me, "What was your favorite thing in Europe?!  What did you enjoy the most?!"  And I can finally boil it down to taking pics of the food and walking EVERYWHERE and seeing something TRULY inspiring!  A lot of the times I wasn't able to bring my sketch book with me everywhere, but I took tons of pictures.  All the things I saw in Europe made me want to sit down and draw what I saw; it was truly amazing. 

Unfortunately, I still haven't gotten over the "I don't want to upload my pictures yet..." phase.  I know I need to, but it still feels like I should wait a bit.  I have to be honest, I think I'm just too lazy to upload and sort and label and fix and STUFF.  I'm just not ready...yet!  Maybe I'll start working on some pics when school starts back up again :)

My pen pal from France came over to my house!  She's 13 years old and is such a sweetheart :']  She and her family are missionaries and I can speak for my family and I when I say they are one of our favorite family friends!  They are just so sweet and awesome.  We met them about 5 years ago through our old church and since they were coming over to the States, we definitely wanted them to come by.  :)  We had a blast with them!

I've already started drivers ed.!  It's very exhausting but I know this will be worth going to class 3 times a week for 2 hours each class (ikr?).  Driving at night in empty parking lots seem to attract me more so than driving through full parking lots or even the roads in our neighborhood (gee, i wonder why?).  I think I'm an okay driver... I mean, I haven't hit or killed anything or anyone since I've driven.  So I'd say I'm doing pretty well X)

Ugg!  Another thing I started was a neighborhood running class.  I won't even go there right now but all I can say is our leaders are razing the bar every time we meet up... and let me tell you, I feel like crying while running with them X'(  I hope to get better though :D

Oh... what else... OH!  I know!  I started a YouTube Channel :D  It's mostly for my art stuff but if I happen to get a better camera for recording stuff I may make another one for it's my life or my health blog!  Here's the link

Talk with you guys later!  It's good to be back :')

*Allie*

Bonjour!!!!

Hi Guys!  I'm back :D  I missed you guys so much and I really can't wait to put my pictures up!  But for now, I need to catch up with my real life first and most importantly catch up with my sleeping hours and such ;)  I had a great time, I'll tell you that.  And I thank you all who have prayed for my grandparents and I on our trip!  You are a huge blessing to us *hugs*  Talk with you guys soon,

*Allie*

au revoir for now

I'm off to Europe >__<  Tomorrow I'll take flight to a part of the world I've never been to!  I am really excited and at the same time really sad to leave my friends and family ;(  But I'll be back before I know it... ;)  With pictures too!  Love you all very much,

*Allie*

ps:  Have a great 4th of July :)

looking through some older pictures...

As I was clearing my camera so I can have space on it for my trip, I found these.  They're just some quirky/dorky pics I took after I finished my makeup.  I need not say more...... *grin*

*Allie*

one more week!

I can't even believe it!  I just can't....  Saturday next week I'll be off to Europe for the very first time in my life!  Some things I have to do before the trip....

1.)  Clean My Room

It has gotten so super messy the past few months and I just can't take it any longer!

2.)  Packing (duh!)  

I need to pack lite though....

3.)  Last Minute Shopping

Small cosmetic bottles for shampoo/conditioner, jeans/shorts, etc.

4.)  Possibly Get a New Sketchbook...?

Just for the trip;  I'd really like to sketch some things I see on the trip.  Will need to get a small one, though.

There's a 99.9% chance I won't be able to blog while I'm in Europe; 1.) because I'll be going on tons of tour and 2.) I don't own a wireless computer/awesome ipod *grin*.  So this might be my last post for two weeks!  *sniff* I know *sniff*....

In cases like these I almost wish I had a twitter account so then I could tell you guys where we're going at what time and send you pictures instantly... but I don't know.

And before I go I'll let you know that the finals went really well.  At least, I think it did.  Thank you to all who prayed for me!  I could really feel those prayers, it was amazing.

Love you guys :)  Chat with you... in a while I guess ;]

*Allie*

some inspiration

I've been really stressed lately.  The reason is, is that this next week is my last week of school and next week if full of huge tests that I have to pass no matter what.  So there's a lot of big things going on in that department.  Last night I need some inspiration, so I opened up my Bible and flipped through it for a while.  Here's what I got :)


Romans 5:3-5
Not only so but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

I really like this one.  To me, this verse was telling me, "It's okay, if you fail your tests, Allie.  Because you will be able to learn from your experience and with that you will have hope!  God is with you and everything that's in his plan is not a mistake, it's there for a reason!"  As soon as I read this verse I had to read it again; I felt like this verse was what I actually wanted to hear from the Bible, I wasn't really expecting to find anything so inspiring!  I felt like God was talking to me ;)  And in a way, I think he was, cause he knew I would read that verse.  He knew even before I was even born!

2 Corinthians 1:3-4
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.

Another very inspiring verse ;)

Have to go, Darlings!  I hope these verses were just as inspiring to you as they were to me :)

*Allie*

an update at last...

Hello friends!  Just thought I'd do a quick update since I have a bit of time.

1.)  Two weeks until school is officially OUT!  Yay!  I'm so excited!  But this also means cramming in study time for finals *blah...!*  The deal is, I have to pass my State Biology and Algebra tests.  Like I have said many times in the past, I am not terrific at tests.  So this will obviously be a huge stressing out phase from this point and by the time school is out :/  Prayers would be most helpful!  I think if study hard enough and pray, God will guide me threw those tests smoothly :) *please God, please God, please God!*

2.)  Three weeks from now (this is the big one!) *drum roll*.... I'm going to Europe for the first time ever!  *jumping in seat* :D  So (another) obviously, I am so super excited for that!  I'm going with my grandparents to England, Scotland, and France.  Taking pictures will be a must for me and most likely washing my own clothes in the hotel room bath tub.  But hey!  That the adventure part of this trip... at least it is for me :)  I'll be away for two weeks, so I won't be available to post pictures as I go (unless I miraculously get my own lap top and free WiFi... *grin*).  Again, prayers for a safe and smooth trip would be most appreciative :)

3.)  From July to August, I will be starting Drivers Ed. *a big 'whoohoo' and a back flip*.  I'm scared, nervous, and overall just scared.  But I'm also really excited to start this new chapter in my life ;) 

4.)  This is just an idea my mom and I have come across.  But we were thinking about me volunteering this summer at a senior home and/or Children's Hospital.  I would be an entertainer there, most likely drawing.  Maybe fun art games and crafts for Children's Hospital :)  I don't know, we'll have to check into it.  But it would take care of my volunteer hours to graduate high school.  Plus, I would really like to get to know these people and care for them.  It's still in the idea folder, though.

That's about it!  Have a great rest of your week,

*Allie*

if i were to go somewhere right now

I'd go to Disneyland!  I miss Disney parks so badly.  I really want to smell those scents when you hop on a ride and smell the chlorine in the rides with the water in them.  Even though I hated the sun when I was little, I really do wish I could just be there; even if it is hot with the sun on my face and body.  It's raining... again ;P  But I'm crossing my fingers this summers weather will turn up (more so than last year at least). 

And most recently (about a month ago), my favorite Disney Animator, Glen Keane, resigned from Disney ;(  I was so sad when I found out!  For those who aren't familiar with this person, he was the animator for Ariel, Tarzan, Pocahontas, Beast, Aladdin, and Rapunzel.  So he was quite popular in the Disney Animation field.  I really love his art style and his passion.  It inspires me :)

I have been on my deviantART account for quite sometime and getting the hang of it (i go by Cali, there).  I post most of my art work up there now.  I don't think I'll post my art up here anymore only because I haven't figured out how to put watermarks on my work.  Not like anyone would want to steel it as their own, but just to be safe :) 

I find myself going back and revisiting all of the original Disney movies.  I have mostly been into drawing Ariel from The Little Mermaid and most recently Esmeralda from The Hunchback of Notre Dame.  I think one of my next posts I'll write about some of my favorite animated characters (mostly Disney probably :D ) 

I've also been drawing way more than I used to.  I think that's part of the reason why I haven't been in Bloggie World in forever, but most of it is because I feel lazy XD  But I'm going to try to update at least once a week on it's my life :) 

I really want to get back into my writing days, too.  These are the days where I wish I had my own laptop where I could easily bring it with me to school and then just write my story or write on my blog.  But at the same point, I'm very thankful for the computer that I have. 

ps... It's so nice hearing from my bloggie friends again!  I'll try to catch up as much as I can :)

*Allie*

refreshed :)

Ah, it's good to write again :)  I went to the beach for my spring vacation and it was so relaxing!  Before spring break, we had a whole week off for teacher conferences, so I got the mounds of homework I needed to get done before spring break :D  So I was (mostly) homework free for the whole time at the beach! 

It was nice being there, really.  It was sunny for two days but then mostly rained the rest of the week.  But it was a nice enchanted rain :D  Oh, I can't even describe it XD  I think the best part of my vacation was swimming in the indoor pool for hours at a time.  I swam every single day and I felt so sore but very refreshed at the same time... now I'm just blabbering d;  I also liked that I wasn't spending hours trying to get ready with my hair and makeup.  I didn't have to go anywhere so I would find myself walking around the little beach house without any makeup :)  Anyways!  I'll talk more later :D 

*Allie*

hello and goodbye for now

Hi there, people of Earth :D  I'm sorry for my long periods of not writing on the bloggie-boo.  I've been doing that a lot lately <:(  The truth is, I think I just really need a break.  I will be off my computer for everything except homework and I don't know how long I will be gone for.  But I'd say while ;)  I need to be focusing my time on school and having some me time besides going on the computer.  Maybe in Spring Break I can bring my mom's lap top and I will write from there :]  The main thing I need to focus on is reading.  I have to read 1,000 pages by the end of the semester.  So I will probably be doing that.  Until I log back in to bloggieland,

*Allie*

only you

It is only you.  Only you, that I look forward to seeing once a week just to hear your voice (oh that voice).  Only you, that we might happen to lock eyes when I look up from reading my book.  Only you, that I seem to notice you more than the others.  And it is only you, that could make me laugh really super hard on the inside, when you tell a joke.  When others say to the teacher, "I'll give it to you next week..."  I notice that you, and you only,hand it to our teacher with a smile on your face.  While others goof off in class, only you will smile, yet, focus on the white board.  When you walk into a room, is it true that you walk in slow motion as the room goes all fuzzy?  Am I the only one who notices this?  God forbid there's no one else.... Only you, can have that hair, smile, voice, grin, laugh, wittiness, and smartness.  And that first day of class... when you had smiled at me... I didn't look away because I wasn't interested.  It was pure shock.  Because only you had smiled at me like that before.

*Allie*

my day?

I guess I will share what I did today.  I did the usual amount of homework today.  I admired my newly painted nails (oui madame by essie) as I typed everything out on the computer.  I went on my new DeviantArt account (where i put all of my art/drawings) for a few hours (i promise, i'm not cheating on it's my life blog!).  I got a shower a little after four today (because i'm lazy, that's why)  and put my makeup on afterwards.  I went back and forth looking at my stats for my blogs.  I laughed at my brother when he said he "lost" his butt after 30 leg sit ups (as most 12 year olds do, they try to prove their sisters right... and by golly he did those 30 leg sit ups!).  I told him I did 30 a day and after he did 30 panting on the floor *haha* I told him I did them 15 at a time.  That followed with a small cry/laugh ;D  I straightened up my room, did my laundry (which reminds me, i need to switch my clothes to the dryer),  and ran out of my chap stick.
...That about sums up my day :)

*Allie*

safe and sound

Yes, I have heard this song :)  When I first listened to it, I thought Taylor Swift sounded super whiny.  But I guess I got so used to it that it didn't bother me as much ;] 

I find that when I'm dreaming now, it's of me at my favorite beach house taking a nap in my little room.  That place make me feel so relaxed, and the best part is, is that I'll be going there in about a month or so (i forget *haha*).  I know that little town like the back of my hand, and the familiar sounds of seagulls and waves crashing on top of each other are endlessly beautiful.  We walk everywhere, there.  And when the day is done we watch the starts reflect on the ocean by our campfire, with the aroma of gram crackers in the air.  The days there feel endless, but in a good way. 

Don't get me wrong, I love Disneyland!!!  I am obsessed with that place XD  But this place is second on my favorite places in the U.S. so far. 

There, I feel like I can just get away from it all.  It makes me feel safe and sound *sniff*

*Allie*

off to the movies

I'm going to go see Beauty in the Beast 3D and we're leaving in like.... three minutes!  Thought I'd stop by and say that I am still alive and thank you for all of your sweet comments in the last post :D  I can't wait to see the Tangled short ^^  So excited!  gtg4now ;]

*Allie*

dearest emotions, i hate you!

Sunday was just weird.  It all started out to be a really great day!  Because my birthday was when all of the snow decided to drop in on us *haha* my family said they would go out to the mall with me later since we couldn't go anywhere.  Sunday was the most available day for all five of us to go out.  And I had a blast... for the first few hours.

One of the things I have been... I wouldn't say into, but interrested in getting, is getting a second ear peircing.  For one of my birthday presents, my parents agreed to let me get one!  So I got my second peircing done at the mall.  I was a little nervous, and it hurt a little bit, but I am happy with the results.  I'll try to get pictures... maybe.

I had gotten a lot of gift cards for my birthday, so I decided I would spend them then.  We went to Bath & Body Works and I looked around for a while but didn't really see anything a desperatly wanted to have so I thought I'd come back another time.  Second trip was to go get big pretzels and Starbucks X).

And yes I got gift cards to a fancy makeup store!  I was completely siked about it.  When I got to the store, I had to go look around at everything to see if I saw anything eye catching.  And then I went back a second time to see if the things I really wanted were there or not.  The main brand I was hoping they'd have was M.A.C.  and I was super bummed because I new at least three things from MAC that I would have spent my money on.  After about an hour, Mom suggested I ask someone.  Well the person I asked was someone working within another company, who was only selling body scrubbers and ONLY body scrubber.  I am not kidding, twenty minutes of my mom's and my time were completely wasted by listening to this gal who went on and on about how briliant this new design was.  When my mom finally asked for a brosure and politely told the lady we'd "look it up when we get home", the lady went on for another then minutes on why it's the best scrubber the whole family can use!  I was absolutely firious!  Not at the makeup store but at the pushy level this gal was trying to sell us this stupid body scrubber that costed way more than a one way ticket to California!

I finally chose a great lipstick that I am in love with, and I sort of... took my frustration out on the lady who rang up my lipstick, "I don't know if I would like a membership card.  No, thanks anyway!"  It was the rudest thing I had ever done to a person who worked at a store.  The store was 88 degrees and I had sweated all of my makeup off, my hair began frizz, and I was exausted.  My dad and brothers, who had waited outside for over an hour, looked at my small bag I carried out side of the store, "How can that be it?  Did you leave the rest inside?"

I was miserable.  Miserable and completely humiliated!  How could I have been so happy from one moment and then the next be short tempered with the nice lady at the check out stand.  I was just happy we were going home.  Until to hungry boys said they were hungry, "Hungry???"  I said, "How can you be hungry, after eating those pretzels and shakes from Starbucks???  We ate like less than two hours ago!"  I guess three out of the five of us were hungry, so we stopped at Red Robbin.  This can't be happening to me!  I thought.  When we parked I was so emotional, I burst into tears and refused to go in.  My mom comforted me and said I could have something to drink if I wasn't  hungry, "I just *hiccup* want to go h-home."  The boys were already inside by now, and mom finally convinced me to come out of the car.

When we were seated, the waiter asked for our drink orders, "For you, Miss?" He said.  There was a pause as I sat hunched in my seat, elbows on the table.  "Diet coke,"  I said.  My mom knew it had been several months since I had even touched soda and asked, "Are you sure you don't want lemonade or ice tea, hun?"  "I'll have diet coke." I said a little sharper.  Where were my emotions dragging me to?  What was I thining??  After an hour passed of watching the ice in my diet coke melt, I finally sipped the soda.  The bubbles burned down my throat.  I felt discusted by my emotions and kept drinking the diet coke.

I had forgotten about youth group!  I had forty-five minutes to get ready, and I was falling apart.  I couldn't find any clothes to wear and I cried all of my "done" makeup off and that made me cry even more.  My mom finally pulled out some clothes from her closet, pulled out her makeup and flat iron and made me up.  I just stood and let her do my makeup and hair.  That was the most heart warming moment for me in a long time.  I love my mom so much.  Sometimes I don't stop to think of how lucky I am for her ;)

*Sigh!*  Just needed to get all of that off my chest.  How was your Sunday?  :)

*Allie* 

finals, awkward moments, and *gasp* do i have a boyfriend?

So yes I did have my birthday (obviously), but it ended up being a no-go for my birthday party.  It snowed like a foot over here D;  BUT!  That meant there was no school which meant no finals for another week :D  If you're wondering, I had an amazing birthday!  Because I have so many family members, I haven't had the chance to see a few of them because of the crummy weather conditions.  But all in all, I had an a-mazing birthday with my family of four:] 

Because I'm back at school now, yesterday and today were finals for my biology and algebra.  I hate tests (blegh!).  Though I am still breathing (yay!) and my brain is still intact (this is good... i think).  I'm going to tell you about some of the awkward moments that happened today.

First, I was following a guy my age all the way to our algebra class portable and he was on crutches.  I am literally lingering behind him and he probably thinks I'm this weird stalker!  Or worse he might have thought I liked him (which i don't). 

Second, same guy on crutches, we get to the portable door and he looks at the door and starts to readjust on his crutches.  I start trotting a little faster thinking he might need someone to get the door for him, "Oh, do you want my to get that?" I say sort of chuckling (not at him!  i am not that rude ;] )  "No we have to go to a different portable," He say as he "skips" along with his crutches (what do you say when someone is walking with crutches...?? skipping sort of came to mind).  And he totally does not make I contact with me and he looks totally embarrassed.  I'm not sure if guys like being asked by girls if they need help, even if the guy doesn't like her!  Just sayin'.

Third, when we get to the portable (different of course) we have these middle school single desk and chairs (the ones that are one type of furniture) and let me tell you, high schoolers are a lot bigger and taller than middle schoolers.  So it wasn't very comfortable for anyone to sit in those today.  Plus we barely had any space to put our books and calculator, let alone having a spot to do our test on.  I felt like I was Buddy the elf.

Fourth, I'm halfway through my test, absentmindedly playing with my pencil when *bing*!  I flick my pencil right out of my hand (this is actually not the first time this has happened) and it hits the guy sitting next to me, on the leg and for a split moment, I think to myself, "Maybe I can finish my test without my pencil."  I'm not kidding guys!  And the guy, oh my gosh, he was so nice to just smile, pick it up and hand it back to me.  If you're wondering, he is attractive;)  But I don't think I like like him, ya know.

And that about wraps it up for awkward moments for today!  The cutest thing happened today, I am not even kidding!  A little boy who was probably 6,7, or 8 was asking one by one, all of the girls who were coming out of the English class, "Do you have a boooyfriend? *heeheeeeeee*"  He was the cutest thing and he totally made my day.  I should have gotten his number XD  Just kidding :]

*Allie*  

need a laugh??

Enjoy some laughs!

*Allie*

15

As I wait to go downstairs to see my birthday morning with my fam, i thought I would blog for a bit.  I am fifteen, as of this morning at eight o'clock!  Scary.  Exciting!  Sad.  Exciting!

I know the song might be kind of cheesy but I had to put it up!

When I turn 16 I'll have to put this music video up *heehee*

Have a great day!

ps it's snowing

*Allie*

bold is all i can say

Watch.  I was in utter bewilderment when I saw this clip.  I am amazed.  Really.  Amazed.  Words can say so much in these four minutes;)  Plus the dude is kind of a hottie d;

Where do you stand?  Are you for religion, for Jesus or are you for neither?  I'm listening:)

*Allie* 

fried

Have you ever had a "fried" brain, before?  Have you ever felt a "fried" brain, before??  It doesn't feel good.  But for now I will try to pass this epic fried brain feeling :p 

Finals are coming up.  Freaking out.  Just want it to be over with, but at the same time I want it to be a long time so I can get some studying done, but at the same time I don't want to do anything because of my fried brain.  Okay, I'm going to be braggy right now (because it's "my life" that's why!).  I am a grade A student!  I am an over-achiever, and my teachers have even told me so.  I am glad I get A's and that I am known as the over-achiever!  It makes me feel really good.  But let me just tell you, when it comes to tests, I suck!  I don't what it is that makes me get D's to just almost barely a B on tests, but that's what happens.  I don get easily distracted on others (is it just me or do the scratches from the pencils and the flipping of pages seem to be amplified when taking tests??), but still!  Last year when I took the finals for pre-algebra, my final grade was a C.  I had gotten all A's that year with the exception of a few B's.  Prayers are NEEDED, please ;] 

I will also be having my 15th birthday on the 16th:)  My party will be on the 15th and I am super duper excited.  I need to..... HOLY COW!  I just looked at my calendar and my birthday is in 5 days!!!!  I just had a huge fried brain wave....Ugh!  So overwhelmed >.<  Studying, birthday, birthday party, and FINALS do not mix together very well :(

Other than that everything is pretty normal.  Oh, except my family and I will be taking french lessons on Thursdays (yay!)! 

*Allie*

hi! i'm allie... remember?

It's been too long, guys!  I'm serious.  I feel so guilty (yeah that long!).  Merry LATE Christmas and Happy LATE New Year:)  I hope you had a wonderful holiday and get back into the swing of things in school and work.

Okay, so guess who got homework for Christmas break?  ME!!!!!! (what a woop-dee-doo surprise!)  That's the main thing that had been holding me back that last week of the year ;(  So I couldn't tell you all how my holidays were.  They were fine if you were wondering:)  But I was not ready for the new year!  2012??? Oh my gosh!  I am getting so freakin' old!  I turn 15 in ten days and I am legally allowed to start driving once I'm done with drivers ed...... with a parent of course, but WHOA!  That just kinda popped up on me!!!  The first day of 2012 was when I got this dvd/package from my parents insurance saying, "You have a teen that's ready to start driving in a few weeks!  This an exciting time for teenager but scary time for you parents."  I'm like, "Did anyone ever think it would be scary for me????"  For those of you who drive, please leave me an encouraging "driving wisdom" comment.

Also, I got a drawing tablet!  Yay!  So I'll be posting some of my art on here now;)  I'm still trying to figure this thing out, so I can't promise much.

I also have a Photoshop "website" where you guys can also see my art.  It's almost like a facebook for art;)  Here's the link!  You can leave comments if you have your own account, too:)

Bye for now (hopefully i won't go missing for another few weeks),

*Allie*