So my channel is still a work in progress. I'm working with the equipment that I have until I decide I really need to invest in some new things. I'm getting excited!
That's not really the reason I wanted to blog right now. Right now, I want to talk about life.
Life's scary. It's hit me in the last couple of weeks that life isn't something you have control of.
(I've rewritten so many possible sentences I could fit after that last sentence, but I just couldn't find the right words.)
I guess what it all comes down to is that God is in control of our life. He knows the past, the right now, and the future of all of our lives. I try so hard all the time to plan my future, and what I've been planning for years, is finally getting close - close to my real future. It's so close, I'm afraid of what path I want to go down. What if I screw up? I'm only given one life. A life that is so fragile and can break when it's swallowed up by the world.
I almost wish I was Kim Possible on my old Nintendo DS game where you were given three lives until it was game over.
"Because I'm worried I'll fall." I whisper back.
"Did you ever think that a fall could help you jump even higher?" He says back.
"What if I hit rock bottom when I fall?"
"Trust in me; I will catch you, child. You will be alright when you trust me."
If you didn't get the hint, that's the sort of conversation I have with God (No, he doesn't really respond, but I feel that that's what he's saying to me. Is that weird?).
Think video game, for a second. I realized that God is my "extra life." Because I excepted Jesus in my heart, I have an everlasting/bonus life. No matter what happens, God will redeem me with a new life every time I fall. And when the game is over, it doesn't matter anymore, because I will still have that everlasting life with God and other Christians!
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."
~ Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV
I have no clue if what I said in this post made sense or if this meant anything to you at all or if you're still thinking "Why does this weirdo think she can actually talk to God?" This was just something I needed to get out there.
I love you all and wish the best life for you!