Monday, December 31, 2012

almost new year

It's been a great year.  In a short little review, I turned 15 and started driving this summer.  Also this summer I went to the United Kingdom and Paris, France and about two months later went to Orlando, Florida.  I started my Sophomore year of high school and tend to drink more coffee than I did last year.  I learned I not only have a passion for becoming an artist, but someday becoming a writer in England.  Wherever I may go in life, is in God's hands. 

On Christmas day, my Grandma asked me if my family members or I had chosen a new year's Bible verse, "So you can remember the verse as your verse for this year." she said.  We all shook our heads in unison.  But what a great idea, I thought to myself: a Bible verse that I choose for the new year.  A verse I can hold to in my heart through everything in 2013. (Out of habit, I almost typed 2012)

Last night, I spent time searching for the right verse for me this new year's.  Here is what I found through my old highlighted pages.  I found a lot of really good ones, too. (feel free to use them as your own verses for the new year!)

* psalms 62:2
He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

* ephessians 5: 1-2
Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

* ephessians 6: 7-8
Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, whether he is slave or free.

The last one I will show you guys, is one I found about a month ago.  And it stuck with me.  I read it, and I was so shocked, I was looking for some sort of guidelines that said, "This verse was meant for Allie!"  Because I saw so much in these words.

* proverbs 4: 11-13
I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your step will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble. Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.

"...for it is your life."  I mean, WOW!  Guys, that's like my blog in a few sentences!  I swear to goodness, I never read this verse before I even started this blog.  It just boggles my mind that this verse reflects so much of me.  "I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths."  When I read this verse, I feel like God is near me.  Like He's close to my heart.  Which is what I, a Daughter of Christ, should feel. 

This will be my verse for 2013, I have decided.  Not even for 2013, but for my life.  I love it so much.  Happy New Year, everyone!  May you find a great verse that inspires you throughout 2013 and beyond.  See you on the other side ;)


Friday, December 21, 2012

*christmas vacation*

Hey all!

Oh, those asterisks next to the title?  Those are snow flakes.  Aren't I creative?  I'm trying to at least, for a special holiday coming up in... oh, four days.  Yeah, it's Christmas!  I am so excited, I kid you not!  Today was the last day of the school of 2012 until January 7th, 2013.  I am finished with all of my homework and I am so happy.  Gosh, I hope today really isn't the end of the world.  That would suck.  Four days before Christmas and the world decides to fall apart.

Well, any who.  I have been making a list of things I'm planning on doing during Christmas vacation so it will seem like it will last longer.  So far I have,

1) drink tea at least once every day
2) read several books
3) get together with friends
4) possibly write my story
5) draw and put things up on the web

It's not much and I'm sure I have more, but I just needed to get that out!  I'll try to swing by before Christmas break is over.  Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!


Monday, December 3, 2012

so where were we?

Oh yeah, life decisions.  Pros and cons on future careers and totally different life styles.  One life totally artsy and living in California only a few states over from my home state.  Deadlines with everything Disney, Disney, Disney.  From interning to working at the parks to interning again.  Working with a kids spirit and imagination bubbling over with every idea. 

Another life completely quite.  Long walks in Hyde Park, writing on park benches or in tea shops, meeting foreign people on the bus.  And that's it.  Living by myself, thousands of miles away from friends and family. 

But that whisper.....

It's been months since I heard that whisper.  I mean what was I supposed to do when I heard God telling me, "This is a new direction you can take!"  I'm almost 16, not old enough to do anything but drive with a parent and maybe get 12 hours a week at the grocery store (I still haven't gotten there yet...).  I can't fly across the country to a different one to follow a whisper - at least not yet.

Urgh!  I always end those sentences with a "at least not yet".  It's frustrating and it gets me no where in these situations.

When I went to Disney World, in their Hollywood Studios park, there was like a whole spot dedicated to Animation.  And I could have spent hours there - even days!  There, you can learn how to draw by Disney interns and I had a blast.  After drawing my first character, my dad kept telling me I should go talk to the intern guy.  He finally convinced me and I came up to the guy.

"So what college did you go to?"  I asked him.  He named off some school but I forgot what he said.
"We've go a Disney fan in our family," my dad said patting my shoulder, "She wants to join your rank soon." 
I was beaming.  Me!  Actually talking to a Disney intern.  I had so many questions!  I just couldn't wait to ask h--
"Huh!  Good luck!" he said with a grumble.
"Oh," I said disappointed, "Thank you...?"

I knew that a lot of people don't really make it "up there" when it came to Disney.  And he might have been one of them.  I saw him two days later, wearing a janitor suit with a broom and a bucket.

How can I be sure that I won't be that guy?  He was probably 5 - 7 years older than me and every Disney employee makes minimum wage.  How am I sure I won't make it to an actual Disney Animator position?

But how am I sure I won't make it as a writer/author?  They don't make much either. 

I think what I'm worried about is time.  I want to be young for everything!  I want to work at Disney for a long time, like when I'm married and afterwards.  But I want to live in England as a writer before I get married.  And I think I know why. 

A couple of months ago, my mom joked that 1/3 of her grandchildren would be British.  She's convinced now that I will marry a British guy because I am in love with EVERYTHING British!  And it's true.  I've kind of liked that "joke" of mom's since she started it.  Maybe that's another reason why I want to go to England before I get married.  What if God wants me to meet my future husband in England?  I have thought about that SO much.  And it makes sense for some reason!  I don't know.

I think I need to pray about this for a while.  I can't do much at the moment right now, anyways.  I need to pray for where God wants me to go, because I can't see everything right now.  All I see is everything up close.  But He sees the whole picture right now!  I need to trust Him more.

Thank you guys for your prayers and comments.  You are very dear to me and that's why I tell you guys these things.  I hope the next few posts won't be as... depressing?  Confusing?  Or anything of the sort?  I'll talk with you guys later :)