so where were we?

Oh yeah, life decisions.  Pros and cons on future careers and totally different life styles.  One life totally artsy and living in California only a few states over from my home state.  Deadlines with everything Disney, Disney, Disney.  From interning to working at the parks to interning again.  Working with a kids spirit and imagination bubbling over with every idea. 

Another life completely quite.  Long walks in Hyde Park, writing on park benches or in tea shops, meeting foreign people on the bus.  And that's it.  Living by myself, thousands of miles away from friends and family. 

But that whisper.....

It's been months since I heard that whisper.  I mean what was I supposed to do when I heard God telling me, "This is a new direction you can take!"  I'm almost 16, not old enough to do anything but drive with a parent and maybe get 12 hours a week at the grocery store (I still haven't gotten there yet...).  I can't fly across the country to a different one to follow a whisper - at least not yet.

Urgh!  I always end those sentences with a "at least not yet".  It's frustrating and it gets me no where in these situations.

When I went to Disney World, in their Hollywood Studios park, there was like a whole spot dedicated to Animation.  And I could have spent hours there - even days!  There, you can learn how to draw by Disney interns and I had a blast.  After drawing my first character, my dad kept telling me I should go talk to the intern guy.  He finally convinced me and I came up to the guy.

"So what college did you go to?"  I asked him.  He named off some school but I forgot what he said.
"We've go a Disney fan in our family," my dad said patting my shoulder, "She wants to join your rank soon." 
I was beaming.  Me!  Actually talking to a Disney intern.  I had so many questions!  I just couldn't wait to ask h--
"Huh!  Good luck!" he said with a grumble.
"Oh," I said disappointed, "Thank you...?"

I knew that a lot of people don't really make it "up there" when it came to Disney.  And he might have been one of them.  I saw him two days later, wearing a janitor suit with a broom and a bucket.

How can I be sure that I won't be that guy?  He was probably 5 - 7 years older than me and every Disney employee makes minimum wage.  How am I sure I won't make it to an actual Disney Animator position?

But how am I sure I won't make it as a writer/author?  They don't make much either. 

I think what I'm worried about is time.  I want to be young for everything!  I want to work at Disney for a long time, like when I'm married and afterwards.  But I want to live in England as a writer before I get married.  And I think I know why. 

A couple of months ago, my mom joked that 1/3 of her grandchildren would be British.  She's convinced now that I will marry a British guy because I am in love with EVERYTHING British!  And it's true.  I've kind of liked that "joke" of mom's since she started it.  Maybe that's another reason why I want to go to England before I get married.  What if God wants me to meet my future husband in England?  I have thought about that SO much.  And it makes sense for some reason!  I don't know.

I think I need to pray about this for a while.  I can't do much at the moment right now, anyways.  I need to pray for where God wants me to go, because I can't see everything right now.  All I see is everything up close.  But He sees the whole picture right now!  I need to trust Him more.

Thank you guys for your prayers and comments.  You are very dear to me and that's why I tell you guys these things.  I hope the next few posts won't be as... depressing?  Confusing?  Or anything of the sort?  I'll talk with you guys later :)

*Allie*

things that make my mind spin......

Hey guys,  I'm back from Florida!  I had a great time ;)  It was a nice break from life and I think I needed that to give myself a breather. 

Remember when I told you guys in my last post how I need to talk to you guys about something?  Well, I will tell you now... I guess.  To be honest, my mind is just sitting in the land of fog.  But nevertheless, I will tell you guys what's been on my mind.

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I've been drawing a lot more - a lot more!  My style in art is changing every time my pencil hits paper and I'm loving it.  This is what I've wanted for so long.  I'm drawing and actually liking most of what comes out of the sketch.  It's wonderful.

My mom and I have been looking into the school DigiPen.  It's a great art school in our area and it's close to my house.  The best part, is that some of the teachers have worked for Disney Animation Studios before.  It's quite amazing!  DigiPen is a college, so I have a while before I can attend.  But I am just so excited and want to learn more about the school.

And what's even more cool, family members that live less than a half an hour away from DigiPen have said they are willing to let me stay at their house if I go to that school.  Wow, that would be amazing!

But I just have one problem.  I now have a new passion.  One that I didn't even know would come up into the mix of things.  I love it just as much as drawing, and possibly even more!

 

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I have always loved to write.  When I was in middle school, I started writing novels I wanted to publish one day.  Back then, I knew I wanted to be an author when I was older but I was on the fence about it.  One, I knew it wasn't the best of a living (I think the average writer makes 60k - 80k a year) and two, I knew writing takes time; I hate deadlines, and I wouldn't like a company yanking on my chains to finish something - especially if it was writing a book!

 

I've been taking a creative writing class at my school and it has challenged me to write in ways I never thought possible. I love it! And I've been writing something big. It's part novel, part script for a BBC Sherlock episode. I have never been so excited about something in my entire life. My whole story is coming together so nicely and I've really become obsessed with writing and thinking about it. And you know what? It's making me want to go back to England. I thought to myself a while back ago, "What if I became a writer and lived in England?" 

 

All of a sudden I got this overwhelmed feeling - I don't know if it was in heart, soul, or gut - but I knew that I wanted to do this. In a weird way, it was almost as if God was telling me to do this.  Or at least to plan for it, I'm still not out of high school. 

 

I was quickly pushing the thought of moving to England out of my head, "Nope!  You are going to be a Disney Animator that lives in California!  You cannot move and live in England!  That's crazy!  You could never do that!  NO!"  And then, as if someone whispered into my ear, I heard, "Why not, Allie?  Why couldn't you do that?  What's stopping you?"  I knew this was God telling me this, He was calling me to do something, "What if I want you there for a reason?"

 

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I am literally writing a pros and cons list about choosing between two of these major future decisions!  I'm not done talking about this yet, but I need a breather from this topic (and I know you guys do too!).  So this will be a "To Be Continued" post......

 

*Allie*

florida

Hi friends!

Sorry for the lack of updating and stuff.  I've just been pretty busy lately.  I would want to write a post, but as soon as I brought up a new tab to write one, I would always be stuck, "What should I even talk about?"  I mean, besides the homework load and making new friends, life has been pretty uneventful.  Seriously.  Well, besides the fact I'll be visiting Florida for two weeks :)

Yes, Disney World and Universal Studios will indeed be what we are visiting!  I am just now getting really excited for this... mainly because I leave tomorrow night.  And the funny part is, I haven't even started packing yet.  Yeah, I'm weird that way!  Prayers would be lovely, darlings.  You guys are so awesome for even reading this post :)  I wish I could give you all hugs!

Another funny thing, one of my first blog posts was about me visiting Florida for the first time.  That was two years ago!  Goodness, it just blows my mind.

I want to ask you guys some advice on something.  Something I've been thinking about for a while now.  But I might have to write a post about it when I get back.  Please stay tuned :) 

I love you all!  Have a great weekend,

*Allie*

a brand new school year

Hey all of you wonderful people!

It's that time of year again where all children in the district get together and do loads of homework!  Oh joy!!!! *sarcasm*  I'm just kidding, I really do like the beginning of the school year; you come in with a fresh start, new supplies,  and a better judgment coming in this year than the last.  I've gotten most of my room clean, I just have a few piles of crud here and there.  I know having a clean room will help myself not be too stressed out, so that's a good thing.

Another one of the great things about school starting up is -no not seeing your friends again- but watching the new episodes of your favorite tv series!  My family only has the basic channels, but our favorite shows are "The Middle" that stars Patricia Heaton and the other tv show that is my most favorite tv show in the entire world, BBC's Sherlock!!!  Ugg, best show ever!  The sad part in that is that Sherlock won't be filming the 3rd season until 2013.  *oh, poo!*

With new pencils and all, I'm starting school this Thursday :)  I hope everyone has a great first week at school!

Chat with you later,

 

*Allie*

youtube videos update

Here are some speedpaints, guys!  Enjoy :)

*Allie*

an update

Hey y'all!

My apologies for being absent ever since I got back to the Bloggie World.  I have gotten over jet lag and all that crud for good and I am so glade to be back!  I miss walking around in Europe though :'(  Everyone that I've seen or talked with since I came back have asked me, "What was your favorite thing in Europe?!  What did you enjoy the most?!"  And I can finally boil it down to taking pics of the food and walking EVERYWHERE and seeing something TRULY inspiring!  A lot of the times I wasn't able to bring my sketch book with me everywhere, but I took tons of pictures.  All the things I saw in Europe made me want to sit down and draw what I saw; it was truly amazing. 

Unfortunately, I still haven't gotten over the "I don't want to upload my pictures yet..." phase.  I know I need to, but it still feels like I should wait a bit.  I have to be honest, I think I'm just too lazy to upload and sort and label and fix and STUFF.  I'm just not ready...yet!  Maybe I'll start working on some pics when school starts back up again :)

My pen pal from France came over to my house!  She's 13 years old and is such a sweetheart :']  She and her family are missionaries and I can speak for my family and I when I say they are one of our favorite family friends!  They are just so sweet and awesome.  We met them about 5 years ago through our old church and since they were coming over to the States, we definitely wanted them to come by.  :)  We had a blast with them!

I've already started drivers ed.!  It's very exhausting but I know this will be worth going to class 3 times a week for 2 hours each class (ikr?).  Driving at night in empty parking lots seem to attract me more so than driving through full parking lots or even the roads in our neighborhood (gee, i wonder why?).  I think I'm an okay driver... I mean, I haven't hit or killed anything or anyone since I've driven.  So I'd say I'm doing pretty well X)

Ugg!  Another thing I started was a neighborhood running class.  I won't even go there right now but all I can say is our leaders are razing the bar every time we meet up... and let me tell you, I feel like crying while running with them X'(  I hope to get better though :D

Oh... what else... OH!  I know!  I started a YouTube Channel :D  It's mostly for my art stuff but if I happen to get a better camera for recording stuff I may make another one for it's my life or my health blog!  Here's the link

Talk with you guys later!  It's good to be back :')

*Allie*